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The Disappearing Self: How We Lose Ourselves in Relationships Part 1 of 3: Me, You, and Us

  • Writer: Chris DiGiovanni
    Chris DiGiovanni
  • Jul 5
  • 3 min read

Have you ever woken up one day, reflected on your life and relationships, and thought to yourself, “I don’t know who I am anymore”?


I’m not talking about amnesia, dementia, or even a midlife crisis. I’m talking about a quieter, more subtle kind of loss—the feeling that you’ve become so emotionally fused with someone else that it’s hard to tell where you end and they begin. This is especially common in long-term relationships, marriage, and parenting roles where the needs of others often come first. It’s not always dramatic or obvious, but it can feel like you’ve faded into the background of your own life.


Change is inevitable. Our bodies are constantly regenerating cells, and the world around us is always shifting. But sometimes, pieces of ourselves—the parts that once felt vibrant, curious, independent—begin to go quiet. Often, it happens gradually. We enter a relationship with the best intentions, fueled by connection, hope, and biology. In early love, our brains are flooded with oxytocin and dopamine, reinforcing the emotional high of closeness and bonding.


In that early stage, it’s normal for identities to blend a little. We compromise. We make space for someone else’s dreams, needs, and preferences. That flexibility is part of love. But over time, if we’re not careful, the line between compromise and self-abandonment can start to blur.


Signs You May Be Losing Yourself in a Relationship:

  • You struggle to make decisions without checking in with your partner first

  • Your needs, preferences, or goals are often minimized or put on hold

  • You feel responsible for managing your partner’s emotions

  • You notice yourself saying "we" far more than "I"—even in personal matters

  • You’ve stopped doing things you used to enjoy, and you're not quite sure why


This doesn’t necessarily mean you’re in a toxic or unhealthy relationship. In fact, many people who feel this way are in loving partnerships. But love without room for individuality can quietly shift into enmeshment. Even in safe, committed relationships, we can lose touch with ourselves if we aren’t intentionally nurturing that part of us.


When Caring Becomes Self-Abandonment

True intimacy isn’t about becoming one person—it’s about showing up as whole individuals who choose each other over and over. Healthy love requires both connection and autonomy.

Enmeshment can look like:

  • Constantly anticipating your partner’s needs without expressing your own

  • Feeling guilty for wanting alone time or pursuing personal interests

  • Equating disagreement with disconnection or rejection

Emotionally, self-abandonment can show up as anxiety, resentment, numbness, or a lingering sense of dissatisfaction. It can also manifest physically—fatigue, tension, or restlessness. Cultural and social expectations often reinforce this, especially for those conditioned to be caretakers or to keep the peace.

But you are more than your role in someone else’s life. You are a full person with your own voice, values, and needs—and those parts of you deserve space to breathe.


A Gentle Reflection:

What parts of yourself have you quieted or hidden in order to keep the peace?When was the last time you did something simply because it mattered to you—not to anyone else?

This isn’t about blame or regret—it’s about awareness. Naming it is the first step to reclaiming it.


In the next post, we’ll explore why so many of us fall into these patterns in the first place—and how early relationships shape the way we love and lose ourselves as adults.

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